Just a Little More

I think that I will beat out all brides in the "letting it all go" race. We haven't been done with our wedding stuff for even a week and I feel the poundage creeping back onto my already "cushioned" body. I watched my diet and worked out a decent amount during the past year and a half. I did it so that I wouldn't have to have my wedding dress taken out, rather than in. I also didn't want to look like and overstuffed sausage in my chang saam. Fortunately, I was able to fit all three dresses and looked pretty good in them, if I do say so myself.

However, ever since I woke up on Sunday (the day after all the festivities were over), I have been eating like a freaking cow. I ordered bacon and pineapple pizza that day and ate 3 slices for lunch and 2 slices for dinner. I felt disgusting, but at the same time so ecstatic that I was finally eating a meal of full-fat food.

This week at work has been pretty difficult in terms of eating healthy. I keep thinking, "oh, I'll just have one more bite." and "This meal is to treat myself. I won't do it again for a while." Who am I kidding? Instead of being good and eating my Lean Cuisines and Smart Ones for lunch, I go out for sushi lunchboxes, have tuna wraps, eat sour patch kids and crunch bars, etc. I have been giving into the temptations that I would never let myself before. I also haven't even thought about going to the gym. I used to at least think about going. Even if I didn't go, I'd feel guilty about it. Now, I don't even think to go. If I do, the thought is fleeting and there's no way in hell I feel guilty about it.

I think I'll be 10 pounds heavier by the end of the month. That's hot.