What the Motherf*ck!

I'm sitting here at the computer still reeling from the shock I received this morning. Out of the blue, the department decides to lay off 30% of its employees. Guess who was one of the lucky people to get axed...me! Isn't that just fantastic news? Ugh. I was called into an exec's office this morning only to be told this very upsetting news. And if that wasn't enough, he added, "so basically today is your last day." Um, stick a nail in the coffin why don't you! Geez. Apparently the security desk downstairs had a list of all the people allowed out of the building with boxes today so if I were to need to pack my stuff, he told me I might be stopped by security so I should give them my name and it'd be fine. Thanks...I guess. Oh yeah, I can't forget the cab voucher they gave to me for my ride home. So generous.
Everything about the situation is weird. 1) We never got even a hint of a warning that this was going to take place. 2) My direct supervisor was in the dark and I had to tell HER that I was let go. WTF is up with that? Just a tad strange, no? 3)I have no idea how Corporate chose people to lay off. I've only been working there a little over a year and I was shocked. Imagine the surprise to people who have been working there for decades? Yes, they too were on the chopping block. I don't get it. I don't think anyone does. Stupid corporate mergers. Damn them.
Anyway, after my initial response of crying and hyperventilating was over, I proceeded to tell my colleagues. I think that's the worst part of all. Yes, I love my job and yes I finally found the career for me, but shit, what am I going to do without all my friends at work?! I had such a blast there everyday because the atmosphere was always full of friendliness and fun. Even if I find another job, there's no guarantee that I'll find a group of people as wonderful as the ones I had to leave. I mean, even with this awful news, I was able to leave with a smile on my face because I can't help but smile when I'm around them.
This just sucks. It sucks balls. It sucks big balls. Did you know that this sucks?